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its been a year since i last wrote and now i have a great need to look back at the whole year and see if there was anything worthwhile that happened in my life. Why? Why do we do that to our self.. make sure that we have to have something worthwhile happen.. what happens if nothing really happened? terrifimg!!!


I grew a year older in march.. surprise surprise!!! and i think i did have a nice time though being very materialistic the gift are the only thing that stands out of the whole experience. as usual a wonderful big gift from dad... makes me actually thank God for small mercies or rather i should say Big mercies!! Did i grow a year wiser.. i will never know, but i don't think i want too.. its too depressing to think that first of all you are losing your youth and to top it you grow wiser... that means more sensible that means lesser moments to laugh at yourself or at least laugh at a drop at a hat. as you grow older you realize you need a tool, like a movie or the cartoon strip to help you laugh. your mind is already being sensible! depressing

The trip to ladakh was highlight of the year.. actually the highlight is tied between ladakh and my new job, but the happiness quotient of ladakh lasted a lot longer. the trip trail was Delhi - Agra - Delhi - leh - manali - kulu - simla - Chandigarh - Delhi - Bangalore. Travel is so important for us to know our landscape, the country, the people and culture and that's just the tip of the iceberg of what a travel experience can give you. for me it also strengthens my appreciation for my dad and God in the same breath the former for giving me the opportunity and the latter for keeping me alive for the many opportunities.

A lot of twist and turns happened towards the end of the year as life took a horrible turn making me fall into the trap of making a choice within family members while drama deceit and hypocrisy took center stage. it was painful watching a relationship of 28years disintegrate to almost nothing and left with one liners in your inbox and my whole wiser self is looking at the entire episode and saying "ces't la vie" ......such is life and move on.

my only conclusion towards the year is that we are treated to expereiences in life only if we are able to deal with it. I strongly beieve the lord above will not give us problems and oppurtunities which cannot be handled by us, and keeping that in mind we move forward in hope that there are better things to come and newer moments to experience. that belief in particular gives me strength to face whatever is put in front of me, and move forward with bold steps.