Its sunday morning and am sittng on my bed with a quilt around my legs andenjoying the breeze coming out of my balcony, my head rocking to Michael Jackson's the way you make me feel and funky town coming form the radio as part of the sunday retro specials. just finished a mug of tea and contemplating another one which means i have to get out of the warmth of my blanket..

seems like a perfect day? then why is there no joy in my soul? why is there sadenss and gloom covering my day? everyday i go on like usual but it feels like its been so long since i have laughed and just had fun. i think life has bogged me down while in search of perfect harmony with the perfect company.

lonliness could be one of the big reason of the way i am feeling like this, looking around me everyone married or getting married, soon will have kids and priorities change and you dont want to intrude in thier cacoon, so what happens to people left behind. what happens to people who have no partners or kids? whose day doesnot revolve around playing with the child or waiting for the husband for dinner or discuss vital issues with someone who you know will respect you inspite of saying the dumbest thing or the most hurtful statement. someone who laughs wth you or completes yyour statements in full understandin of what you are thinking.

i would have loved to be writing this article, while there was a kid playing by my feet making inane conversation about cars or dolls, if my partner had burried his face in the newspaper, grunting but still getting up to make me my cup of tea.. i am sure there would have been contentment in my soul rather than lonliness that I am feeling now

what is my ideal partner? someone who shares my love for movies, so that i can enjoy the latest blockbuster, someone who understands my love for travelling and makes time for one inspite of work, someone who I can stand by with my head held high in thier professional world, whose integriy and humanity is applaudable. Are all this too much to ask?

ofcourse it is... who said life is perfect and would be handed to you the way you dream it. all i can say it was good until the dream lasted..............